The difference between expectancy and expectation.
Expectancy is when you are in an open state of mind, knowing something will come to pass but not preoccupied with how it will happen.
Expectation is when you expect that thing to happen in a certain way.
It came to pass, but not in the way I expected. The difference is that, because it did not happen the way I thought it would (linear thinking?), did not mean it would not happen. Certainly I was puzzled and I questioned whether my intuition had been wrong, all the while knowing full well that my intuition had not been wrong. So I let it go, without judgment. I accepted that, for now, it was a mystery, but that it would unfold and become clear in the fullness of time. And I did not speak about it because I didn't want the usual and sometimes pitying remarks about "wishful thinking" -- yes, I'm very sensitive to subtexts, voice, and body language. Why put myself through that when I didn't have to? So I kept quiet save for a couple of people I trust.
It happened, but in a different way.**
And so, I remain in a state of expectancy, but I do not have expectations.
**I pitched a well thought-out and well-presented art book idea to a couple of publishers who rejected it with a rude form letter. In a subsequent turn of events, which I chose to follow without expectations, my fabric art will be featured in a book that is in production at the present.**